Wow its the second semister already.  My parents were right, as they usually are.  They said enjoy your years while you can.  Things speed up as they get older.  I feel like I haven't written in here forever.  I think I probably lost all my readers.  That's ok though.  I could say I don't have any time, but that would be a lie.  If somethings important enough to you, you make time for it. 

I was listening to Pastor Paul the other day and he was preaching about how sometimes God just "recruits" a whole bunch of people to be your enemies for whatever reason.  It sure seems like it sometimes.  I think everyone was laughing the audience because they know it's true and it has happened to them.  Sometimes its the last people in the world you would have expected but it happens.  Other times, its the people you most suspect.  And then there's authority, which teachers and bosses go under.  For teachers they control you're grade so that's pretty bad.  Bosses are even worse because they control you're salary.  God, in his resourcefulness, is kind enough to send us an abundance of enemies.  When you do something to cause someone to be your enemy, intentional or unintentional, that's understandable.  But what really gets my nanny goat going is when someone dislikes you for no reason at all.  I haven't done anything to you!  You could give me a chance and then decide that you hate me instead of skipping the first step.  I can't control what people do or think, although I have thought about what I would do if I could, which is probably why I can't control what people do or think.  There's nothing I can do about it but complain, whine, or pray.  It's always much easier for the first two of course, which makes prayer even more important that you do it.

On a completely different note, I think that I would write more in my xanga if I could better express myself through words.  I read my brothers' xangas and their posts have meaning, importance, organization, and comments.  I'm lucky if I get one comment.  The fact that I even care about getting a lot of comments or even one, puzzles me.  Why would I even want one in the first place?  I have no idea.  If I get comments I'll know that someone was listening to me, other than God.  If I don't well it really doesn't matter what I just put in this post then, huh?  Either that or my readers are exceptionally cruel and won't leave a comment.  Oh well. 

Well today was very different.  First it started off kinda crappyish with Ms. Rapaidos saying that I couldn't do the Operation Christmas Child through school because the school cannot associate itself with religious organization.  So naturally I put on a nice smile, secretly wishing I blow a raspberry at her.  Then in bio I got marked absent because I moved up a couple chairs because I couldn't see the starter question.  I was pretty gloomy.  By then all these little things had just added up and I just didn't know what to do anymore because I was so downcast.  Eventually afterwards, with some comfort from friends I realized that I didn't know how or when, but God would make everything fine.

After that my day started to look up.  Some friends asked me to go to dinner with them.  I eventually, after a little complications with setting stuff up, got to the restaurant.  Then we went to the Crowne Plaza Hotel where Grid was happening.  The dance was really fun.  With Trevor, Elizabeth, Chris and his girlfriend, Nicki, Brian, Me, David, Shashank, Jodie, and Katie took pictures.  I saw so many people there including Melanie M, and I heard that David L was there.  It was really fun.  Then after the dance, practically everyone that went to Grid went to IHOP.  I sat with David D, Trevor, Danielle, and Paige.  Those dorks, they were taking pictures with their cell phone of all of us.  We ordered Chicken Tenders and Onion Rings which, when we split it all and the cost it came to be about $3. 

Stupid Little Things

It's always difficult when God "prunes" us.  No one likes to be "pruned" but it is for our good that God removes the parts of us that are not fruitful in our spiritual walk.  Now that doesn't mean that God will strip us of everything that doesn't directly correlate to him.  It just means that he wants to rid us of sins.  Being the simple-minded beings we are, even little things, entertain us like twiddling our thumbs, however short.  And God being omnipotent and omnisciencenes(however you spell it) sometimes rids us of these things for whatever reason I don't.

For some reason, as little and stupid as it is, my Gamecube's memory card is kinda corrupted and crapped out.  It couldn't have been one of the little memory cards that holds only 50 blocks, no of course it had to be the one that holds a thousand.  It may be very little, but that little piece of technology contains several years of work on it.  It might sound stupid and kinda superficial, but I remember making memories with my brothers on it playing games always trying to outdo them.  Another memory for today is that even though my brother wasn't here today.  I called him to ask what I could do.  He had no idea what to do either.  The only way to fix it is to reformat it.  For those of you out there who are less than computer savy, like me, it means that the program must be completely deleted and purged of corrupted files and be "cleaned."  It's just so small and stupid that it makes me a little mad that I care so much about it.  I even asked my brother to pray.  It sounds so pathetic now that I'm writing it.  I haven't reformatted it yet.  So I'm kinda praying to God that the memories of me, my brothers, and sometimes my friends might be preserved there.  Pray for me, so that this isn't so important to me.

You know how in movies or tv shows the main character is usually faced with a conflict of some sort.  There's a devil version of the character on one shoulder and a angel on the other.  That's kinda like christians.  I don't know about most of you, but I know that I am usually and constantly having these two characters on my two shoulders.  An example of this is when I don't like a particular person because their just mean, too sarcastic at the worst times, annoying, (the list goes on forever...).  Here are the two me's:

Devil Me:
Oh Lord, I'm gonna get that person.  Oh sorry Lord, I need to get that person now.  I'm sorry but, you take too long sometimes.  That person needs to learn some good Christian displine.  I've been nice, being mean is way overdue.  Your (that person I don't like not God) grief will be my happiness.  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thus it is very good that I'm not God, because life truly would be living h***. 

Angel Me:
Oh Lord, thank you so much for your grace and mercy because otherwise I know I would strangle their oversized twiggy neck.  Please forgive that person for they don't understand what they do.  Also please forgive my heart for getting upset with them.  You alone can give everyone their just reward, whether good or bad.

A mix of Angel Me and Devil Me which is essentially a Devil Me in a nicer form:
Lord, I would like to please destroy the, please help me in my pursuit.  I guess I should be kind to that person, it says in the bible, "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.  In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." (Romans 12:20)  Bless the Romans. 

In conclusion, "Devil Me" and "A mix of Angel Me and Devil Me which is essentially a Devil Me in a nicer form" rarely ever get to come out and the Angel Me which is probably good because otherwise bad things could happen.